hey everyone! so yea i see no one gets on here anymore because everyone has a myspace...well some dork-- me-- cant get on myspace so hmm im getting on xanga..just thought id update some shit...well me and andrew broke up a while ago..and hmm i wanna move on but  feel like i cant...its sucks..but yea umm lets see...im on probation which sucks...and yea idk just alot of shit been going on....but im trying to get through all of that shit and move on..its just not as easy as i thought it would be ya know?!but yea so how about 3years is coming up for meagan...it never gets easier..i just wnt to cry all the time..i just want her here with methats another thing i have to face...but im going to go and hmm i think someone should leave me a comment so i feel loved!

heyhey everyone! well not too much has been going on lately..just hanging out with andrew and working... thats bout it lol...but yea hmm my dad and claudia are on their way home from colorado...so they'll be home around the 14th..hmm lets see..so yea something thats kinda been bugging me...

 is that andrew might go into the army....he might not even finish highschool this year, his sister said that she'd pay for his GED test, which is $200...and if he passes, then he goes off to basic training..and will be gone for 6months if not longer...i really dont want him to go...but ehh what cna i do?! he said that in the past when hes wanted to go and had his mind made up to go, a girl has always held him back from doing it...which pisses me off because i really dont wnat him to go and uhh im jsut going to be really pissed off and sad if he does go...but enoguh about this said shit...

Andrew is getting a new car thursday or friday!! i cant wait..goodbye to the piece of shit lol but hmm anyways...school is goin to be startin up pretty soon, im pretty excited about that..why im not sure..i thin its because i get to see all my friends..that i havent seen in forever! but yea hmm besides that not too much too look forward to besides hmm nothing lol..but how about i have hives!they itch so bad...and when i itch them i get these bumps like all over and andrew said that i looked like a toad lol...but ehh o well but im going to go and eat and sleep and wait for andrew to get off of work which is at 4..then hes coming over for a little bit..going to drug counseling, then hes picking me up from work, and were hanging out! leave some love

hey hey everyone...so yea i havent really been doing jack shit lately.. i am really sick... ive had a headache for like 2 weeks and my throat hurts like a you know what, and my doctor was on vacation untill yesterday, well i went to the doctors yesterday, and he gave me ammoxacilin [[i cant spell]] and some nose stuff, and ehh so far its working..but this morning i woke up and had a headache, i couldnt go back to bed lol..it sucked...but yea he said that my headaches might be from not taking my effexor everyday so he said i have to take it everyday and if my headaches dont go away in like 2 weeks or so, im supposed to go back and  then we have to look into whats wrong with me...but aNyWho....

andrew is working right now....untill 7..hes going to try and get off early so he can go to drung counseling, but idk if he will or not...then i have to work from 6-9 tonight...hes picking me up from work, then were hanging out..but yea things with me and him seem to be going a little better, its just that i think that i wasnt trying hard enough to like be with him, like i had my mind made up that i didnt want too, and i was going to stick to that, but we talked, and i realized how sweet, caring, loving, and all that other good shit taht he is, and that he has literally no one, so  ithink that we will be able to get thorugh the issues that we have..bceause i know what its like to not have someone...but to have no family and no friends, thats gotta be really hard..so im goin to be here for him!! yupyupp...

so sometime this week i want whit to come and stay with me, i should prolly give her a ring a ling ding and see whats up wtih that...but yea thne sometime this week me and my mom are supposed to go get paint for my and marys room, dont know when were going to do that..but hopefully soon! then Andrew might be getting a new car!! thank god, hes car has to be the biggest piece of shit ive ever saw in my life lol...but its all good...anyways .. so how about school is about to start up again..that there is just fucking craZy!...i hope that i have some classes with my cool cats...but idk...i get kinda sad, i realize how much things have changed ovr the years, and how im not friends with the people i used ot be, and that kinda makes me sad...but hey everything happens for a reason i guess...well i talked to my dad and claudia today! their out in colorado, they seem to be having a good time..as much as i hate to admit it..i miss them..but they'll be back soon enough..well jews this is long enough..im out..leave some love

R.i.P Meagan 12.11.90-5.24.04 i LOVE you

heyhey everyone...well lately i havent been doing too much, just hanging out with andrew and working...this weekend im goin to the football game with andrew, and were meeting chelsea and barb, and adams mom there..and whoever else goes My dad and claudia are out in colorado untill the 14th, claudias dad has a thing set up in part of a library for just teenagers, and its called "Meagans Corner" ... so they went out to see that and to just get away i think. But anyways..so im at my moms untill then...but hmm lets see...sometime really soon i think me renae and rach are all goin to hang out, not sure yet but hopefully because i miss them like craZy! Next week though, i think whit and me are going ot hang out..i cant wait beceuas i havent hung out with her all summer, and i miss her silly jewish ass! lol...then next week also me and katelyn are hanging out...cant wait to do that one either, its been a while since we kicked it! but thats about all the excitement ive got...o yea hmm a couple weeks ago igot my first ticket...i was with andrew and he was speeding, and we got pulled over, and the copper knew we didnt have our seatbelts on when he passed us, so yea i got a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt...well hmm thats about it for now fuckers..leave some love!

R.i.P Meagan iLOVEyou 12.11.90-5.24.04

been doing some thinking...

                   what do i do from here